Wind In My Head: Breaking the Habit
Wind In My Head
Friday, August 19, 2005
Breaking the Habit
I've been grading these essays that talk about vices and how some of them lead to addiction.Addiction, often not a pretty word.
And it's a hard thing to do, give up that addiction.
We all know it by heart. It's bad for you so you should give it up. It's bad for your health, it's a waste of money. But why do we?
Well, I do it because it brings me much joy. On a hot day, it's the first thing my mind turns to. I go out of my way to get it sometimes. Sometimes, when I'm really tired and I know I need to go on, I will hunt it down, double park sometimes, just to get myself some of it. When I need desperately to stay awake, that's what I head for. I have it all times of day. I've had it at 7 in the morning, I've had it late at night. Always the largest I can find. I don't believe in moderation. That's for losers.
And when I don't have it for a while, I start to feel funny and twitchy, wondering what it is that I'm missing and then it hits me. I haven't had it in a while. I got extremely upset when Plentyfish forgot to get me some the other day even though he was under specific orders via SMS to get some for me. I should just be able to consume it intravenously or at least have a camel pack.
But no, I've been told I should give it up. It's such a great sacrifice for me. But I've been told it is really really bad for me so I should really stop. But how?
I tried to, on Tuesday when I found out. I vowed to stop. No more. That's it. Cold Turkey. I thought, easy-peasy. It'll be fine. By Wednesday afternoon, I'd caved and had gone specifically in search of it. Just holding it in my hands made the world seem a slightly more manageable place. And when I finally broke the seal and took some, Ah... sweet sweet relief from this cruel cruel world.
Then I gulped back into reality and went Ooops. I'll stop tomorrow. I promise. That was yesterday.
Today's Friday, my second straight day, dry of iced lemon tea.
Ondine tossed this thought in at 11:07
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At 11:19 pm
Threez said... I have a camel pack (2 litre). You want to boro? I don't think ice lemon tea is bad for you. Copious amounts of Coke Light is, though.