Friday, August 05, 2005


I never thought much about vibes. Packrat was only the "vibe" man. He believed in having a good feeling and sensing whether things were good or not. I had adopted a more science geek type of approach to sussing things out. Looking at fact, talking to people and the inevitable pro-con list that would never reflect the flux and turmoil within me. So I decided on a new tact. I was going to feel out the situation and see where it led me.

I'm sure if I thought hard enough, I have relied on how I feel about things to make my decisions. For sure, I did not draw up a pro-con list when the Packrat asked me to marry him. When he asked me out and I tried to weigh it out in my head, it gave me a headache of epic proportions. So, I'm not alien to the concept of following my heart and what my heart tells me.

So, yesterday, I went with how I felt. On the surface, it was a promising offer. They were promising me the world. And a much larger world than the one I currently reside in. I met people, I talked to people, everyone was nice, everyone tried to make it sound appealing. If I'd drawn up the pro-con list, if I looked at the reality of the situation, if I talked to people, I would take up the offer. It wins in everyway. But at the end of the day, no matter how much it promised and how much found it sounded, it just didn't feel right. Something about it wasn't right. It wasn't the overt friendliness, it was the selling me of the idea, it was something more gnawing, more beneath the surface, something I couldn't quite put my finger on.

I can't explain it, but something in my gut just tells me it ain't the right decision. Either that or it's gas. Who knows.

Ondine tossed this thought in at 08:37

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At 3:37 pm Blogger threez said...

You-Know-Who said you hadn't achieved all that was set out for you in your current spot, and your value to your current spot is much higher. So you know what to do!


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